So today I had to go to a “friends” for a  bbq, I haven’t seen these people in ages. After today I remember why I don’t hang out with them any more The male seems to think that giving me a hug means he has to put both hands on my arse despite the fact that he has a girlfriend let alone that I am engaged and his girlfriend gets drunk and has to have deep and meaningfuls and these always involve making me feel like shit and putting me down. I don’t know why I keep these people around and it just makes me think that maybe I need to do a huge friend clean out in my life. These people have left me feeling so burnt out and upset after an already long week with the death of my Grandmother. I cant take much more of all this shit! Sorry just had to get it off my chest

I’m not really much of a plan ahead kinda girl but I guess if I had to think I want to sort out where we’re staying on our trip in Nov just so we can tell people that we’re coming. I also want to plan some more of my secret project.

So this is my boyfriend and I know it’s kinda cliché but his also my best friend, before we got together he’s helped me through a lot and helped me find myself again, he’s not the only one to have a big impact on my life but at the moment it’s a continuing influence

I guess that’s a good question, my favourite superhero… I mean I love movies about super heroes and what not but I don’t think I’ve ever put thought into who my favourite would be. I guess if I think about it it would have to be Buffy Summers or Faith Lehane really or Spike :P I’m obsessed with Btvs so it fits. I guess with Buffy it’s coz she’s a ditz like me. Faith coz she’s a smart arse, in your face, tell it how it is kinda person(and I so want to shag Eliza Dushku lol) and Spike for very much the same reason and Faith (including that I want James Masters so bad!!)

The Entrance Beach in NSW. I love this beach many fond family memories here

umm, I’m not sure it really counts as a habit in the normal sense but worrying, I wish I didn’t worry so much. especially since if I stress too much my glandular fever comes back.

So group photos of me with my friends are few and far between, so here one from last year when Tim Erin Meek, Jayde and I all went to curlys (Jayde took the pic) It was the first time I’d been out in years somewhere that wasn’t with my ex. not the most flattering but all the same a semi group shot.

My tumblr name is rising-phoenix because at the time I created this I was going thru some shit and trying to find myself amongst the ashes of a ruined relationship in which I lost myself.

Me on Saturday I was dressed as a nurse for Tiph’s 21st

15 interesting facts about me

1.  I am terrified of clowns, I don’t know why and it’s only been since I was a teen I was a fearless child

2. The nurse dress I’m wearing in my pic is just the latest in my collection of “sex costumes” I love buying them, it’s like an addiction.

3. I LOVE MUSIC!! I am my fathers daughter, I love almost all types of music I have a ridiculously eclectic taste in music which helped out when I used to Dj and run Karaoke with my dad

4. I classify my sexuality as gender neutral I believe in attraction to a personality not genitalia therefore gender doesn’t matter to me (that said I have never “dated” a female)

5. I love Buffy, Angel, Charmed, Gilmore Girls, Dollhouse, CSI, NCIS, Dead Like Me, Hex, Bones, Castle and like a million other shows

6. I like to cook, I don’t do it a lot anymore but I used to, but I am pretty much the only one that cooks in this house

7. I want to move out into my own place really really badly. I got so used to living out of home and I crave it again

8. I am an animal person I want to own a farm so I can have more than the 4 I have now. I have 2 cats Buffy and Willow, a rabbit named Frank and Abbey dog who is technically my boyfriends dog but I own her head :P

9. I am in love! I wasn’t sure that my heart would handle any form of love again (dramatic I know but people who know me know how hurt I got) but I am more in love now than I have ever been

10. I am Kenya! most people when trying to stay out of arguments between family/friends they claim to be Switzerland well not me I am Kenya it has lions and is generally more interesting

11. I like scary movies, the only problem being I don’t find them scary. unless you count IT but it’s only pennywise that scares me and the clown zombie in land of the dead and in Zombieland.

12. I like to read, a lot, I’ve always been a reader! there are very few books that I have started to read that I haven’t finished. But I have never read and will never read a romance novel (Mills and Boon shit)

13. Thirteen is my lucky number and good things always happen to and for me on Friday the 13th

14. when buying fresh fruit and vegetables from the supermarket I always get even numbers of things, I don’t know why I just feel the need for it to be even

15. I love Snoopy, Muppets and Emily the Strange. I hate Emos for making Emily popular and I hate Elmo, I’m team Grover!!!

Day 01- A recent picture of you and 15 interesting facts about yourself.

Day 02- The meaning behind your Tumblr name.

Day 03- A picture of you and your friends.

Day 04- A habit that you wish you didn’t have.

Day 05- A picture of somewhere you’ve been to.

Day06- Favorite super hero and why.

Day 07- A picture of someone/something that has the biggest impact on you.

Day 08- Short term goals for this month and why?

Day 09- Something you’re proud of in the past few days.

Day 10- Songs you listen to when you are Happy, Sad, Bored, Hyped, Mad.

Day 11- Another picture of you and your friends.

Day 12- How you found out about Tumblr and why you made one.

Day 13- A letter to someone who has hurt you recently.

Day 14- A picture of you and your family.

Day 15- Put your iPod on shuffle: First 10 songs that play.

Day 16- Another picture of yourself.

Day 17- Someone you would want to switch lives with for one day and why.

Day 18- Plans/dreams/goals you have.

Day 19- Nicknames you have; why do you have them?

Day 20- Someone you see yourself marrying/being with in the future.

Day 21- A picture of something that makes you happy.

Day 22- What makes you different from everyone else?

Day 23- Something you crave for a lot.

Day 24- A letter to your parents.

Day 25- What I would find in your bag?

Day 26- What you think about your friends?

Day 27- Why are you doing this 30 day challenge?

Day 28- A picture of you last year and now, how have you changed since then?

Day 29- In this past month, what have you learned?

Day 30- Who are you?